It’s been awhile since I’ve written and not because I didn’t want to. I’ve had topic after topic I’ve wanted to write about, but have been so physically and mentally exhausted, I couldn’t.
So here it is bright and early on a Sunday morning, and I’m awake because kids don’t understand how to sleep in (kind of crying, kind of laughing). I’ve tried going back to sleep, but once I’m up, I’m up.
So why not write about what’s got me so exhausted. Well my job…they have decided to shut down my location. I will be officially jobless in January. Yes, I know that’s plenty of time to find a job, but I don’t want just any job. I’m also DONE with retail. DONE. So it’s gonna be a little harder for me to find a job because I don’t know exactly which direction I want to go. I’d love to do my writing, makeup, and photography full time, but they aren’t bringing in any money right now. I’ve been busting my ass working, so I want a job that’s easier on my body. I was also thinking about going back to school. There’s so many options out there, that I’m totally and completely overwhelmed.
During this time, I’ve learned that you can’t talk to just anyone about your struggles because you aren’t important to them. It’s sad (important or not) that people can’t offer a few words of encouragement. Even a simple “I’m sorry” would suffice.
Maybe important isn’t the right word, but that’s how it feels. I understand everyone struggles and goes through things, but it’s not okay to make someone feel like they aren’t important, like their struggles don’t matter.
I’ve had so many strangers offer to pray for us (me and one other girl that’s really losing our jobs; everyone else only works with us part-time cause they have full time jobs). We’ve had regulars come in and tell us about jobs that they see or hear are hiring. It makes me feel really special that they would do that for us.
I don’t like the ‘not knowing what’s next’ stage I’m in, but I know it’ll all workout in the end. I know God wont close one door without opening another. I am human, so I worry and stress when I know He already has it worked out for me. I’m working on not stressing or worrying because my God won’t ever leave me.
Stick around and see where I end up next ! 😉